I should be studying now but i'm not haha

hi, it has been 2yrs now, even more. so how's life? yeah may be you're not gonna realize, you won't pay attention.
for God's sake, geeeeez i missed you a lot. why did i use verb2... that's right i'm still missin ya crazy huh haha okay it seems like i'm drunk.
it's really 99x frustating i stalked our convos and well.. that moments could be much much better than it used to... do you get what i mean?*i do not know what i am talking 'bout even i do not know if my grammar is right/wrong lol.*
you're still the same, but i was a stupid hypochondriac that i mistreated you so much. like, it's unbearable. i shud be right there knowing yor problems etcetc but i wasn't. and. it's. not. cool.
i'm abso-bloody-lutely want to break down the time, save our rltnshp or whateva but i..........just can not.
yeah i'm a forever hypochondriac.
why did i use that word so often haha
even if you do something wrong, i don't mind. I. Don't. Even. Mind. even you chose her as your partner, that's okay............ha i'm totally lying.
now i'm like 'b*****tch you stole him get a life w/ another one don't disturb us please bye i watch you k'
no haha not really. she's perfect for you. and you're perfect for her. and that's the problem.
don't you realize that you made us tormented, yeah i use word 'us' because it's not only me who's missing you, and that's sucks.
i'm getting melancholic now.
should stop this.
okay imma gettin my socio papers.
p.s: sorry for wrong grammars.
p.s.s: i can not explain how much i miss this person
p.s.s.s: it seems like my world stucks on him
p.s.s.s.s: he turned me to be a hypochondriac. again. sorry.